i-am-tammy (filipino woman on her 20's: way of life)

As the jeepney I rode earlier passed by Mana Davao, I thought of Christmas... actually, I was wondering why were they not putting up those expensive designs outside their store... I remember them being the most luxurious store to put up great Christmas theme, is it too early still? hmmmm...

That thought made me think of Christmas... didn't realize that it is fast approaching... 42 days more to go, and it's Christmas Day!! ohhhh... I am a Holiday lover thus I always look forward for Christmas to arrive.. Have had great Christmas moments for 2 years now, after finishing the NLE...

Last 2008, I spent my Christmas in Disney Land and Ocean Park, a lovely date with my mom! I witnessed how Christmas is celebrated in HK, and like here in the Philippines, it is magical!!!! I love the cold weather as wind breeze on my skin... I love how I wear thick jackets to keep me warm. I love seeing huge Christmas trees with dazzling decors. I am a kid at heart and these things make a kid feel overjoyed. That lovely memory sticks in my mind up to now.

Last 2009, was a different story. I celebrated Christmas here in the Philippines but this time I was with the people who i loved most that time. It was my first time to feel so happy despite the simple celebration. I feel contented and so loved. Then I went home to continue the celebration with my family who prepared great food on the table.

So what will Christmas be this 2010??

I know there are a lot of factors that could hinder me from feeling extremely happy this Christmas. First, I am still jobless, unlike last year where I have a salary which I can use for gift buying- for my family and self. Second, I am heartbroken, and flashback sometimes creeps me, especially the Christmas time spent with them. Third, I will move to Manila days from now, and I don't know what will happen to me there. Fourth, I will focus in studying and doing great in my exams so my full attention is allotted to it as of now. and Finally, I feel that i look ugly cause I gained weight. =( complains... complains... complains....

But you know guys what kept me to still see Christmas as a wonderful event? a wonderful day? a wonderful moment? It is because, I see God in Christmas... and God gives me hope. All these clamors will be overshadowed by His love... and I know I am still loved by Him even all the agony.. So I'll spend my Christmas 2010 in a simple way.

1) I will find a home for my soul. This will be my gift to my soul. - When my mom was converted to INC, and my sisters were puzzled on which religion to go, my affiliation to my old religion was also stopped. I strongly believe that my soul belongs to a Baptist Church, but for now I cannot find which Church to join. My old Church is situated in IGACOS which we do not often visit after what happened.

2) I will laugh with the people close to my heart. This time, I crashed the idea that only a lover can show love. FRIENDS, which are God's gift to me are greater than any intimate relationship with someone. Spending a day with them is enough to fuel my heart.

3) Since I don't have money as much as before, I will write sincere letters as gifts. =)

4) I will share love to the people who needs love. Hope I can revisit a home for the aged and give them a little token of something. To make them feel loved too. I had a duty @ a home for the aged before and most of them complain that their family is not visiting them on Holidays. I hope I can show to them that they are valued too despite their senile age.

5) I will give my best to pass my exams. This will be my gift to my career. :)

6) I will return to Davao to spend a dinner with my family... and maybe I can give 1 nice photo to each of them which they can hang in their rooms. ^__^ After the dinner, I will invite them to have a joyride and tour the sparkling places of Davao that time. lol... I hope Mana Davao will still put up a nice Christmas Theme so that I can include that in my itinerary... We can go to cheap restos or places.. and take photos... ^_^

Well... I think that is it!!! ^___^ I hope things will not only make me happy... but will also make the people around me happier. =) Merry Christmas Friends! So what's your plan??